It had been a year to date. The pain had left her but the memory remained. The memory - not of the sight of his slow-moving silhouette, not of the smell of his shower gel after he had just showered, not of the touch of his fingers as he tapped her shoulder ever so gently as if he were worried that she might get disturbed from her reverie. It was the memory of his quiet voice, the sincerity of his words, the searching look in his eyes that sought her trust, her faith in him, her love, her heart.
Fate had been unkind to him but he had moved on, rediscovered a stronger person within himself. She admired his spirit. For the first time in her life she felt like believing in the old adage, 'love at first sight'... The battle between her mind and her heart raged underneath her calm demeanour. For the first time, her mind gave in. She wanted to believe in him, to care for him, to give him all that her heart was capable of giving. It was not too late, she thought, to start teaching herself to lose herself to somebody in this way.
His first gift to her was of the colour of the sea - as deep and unknowable as the sea. She embraced it with trembling fingers, curious and excited, nervous and afraid, but trusting and believing.
Today, she remembered him, his ways, his gifts, ... and the pain. He did not leave ... he fled, no, escaped. From her?... from himself... yes, from himself.
She watched the dark ocean waters on the evening tide as she stood near her bedroom window. They were a deep blue. Beautiful, she thought, love is beautiful. He had escaped, but she had not lost the courage to love.
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"Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave. "
11 comments:
awesome meeta. and its not just about the way it is written.
i always try and get theis very point across to many... the importance of courage cannot be ignored.
but one bad go, and they lose the courage.
i was mentioning to someone today that 'getting up when you have fallen' is not the learning. its crap.
even morons will get up when they fall down... unless they are drugged or dead.
the idea is 'how many' times you get up, and 'what you do' with it. try anything different? shuttin goff not being an option?
resilience & resolve.
you cracked it babe :) damm happy for you
i shall quote from an all time fav.
manzilein unhi ko milti hain, jinke sapnon mein jaan hoti hai...
pankh se kuchh nahin hota, haunslon se udaan hoti hai.
and another one :)
kaun kehta hai aasmaan mein suraag nahin hota...
zara tabeeyat se pathhar to marro...
ps- aapne darwaza khat-khata ke bhaagne ki shikayat ki thi. comment ka size dekh lo. baakaeyda chai - pakorre' khaa ke jaa raha hoon :D
Hiee Meeta,
"He had escaped, but she had not lost the courage to love"- really wonderfully written!!!
Some questions keep ringing in my head............isn't love someone else also about having the courage to love oneself first...and inturn coming to terms with ones own complexities... Courage to accept oneself the way one is and not trying to be someone else...loving oneself...ability to move on??????
"I've been in and out of favour with love
Because i gotta tell you
I've been things i never wanted to be
And then some angel called me up
He told me i was sleeping
Said don't waste time
'Cos even angels say goodbye...."
move on.........George Michael
Stay beautiful...
satyam
p.s. harjee Ji, aap aarzbahut badhiya karte hain!!!!!!
Meeta..loved this post of yours...
When two individuals are in a relationship,you will find that they both love either an attitude/characteristic which he/she wants to love...funnily the other may not even possess it..therefore two people in a relationship(in any relationship) have a completely different perspective of the same relationship.....
Hence when you know yourself,love yourself..all things are beautiful..and the world suddenly wonderful/we need to discover that person within:))
He had escaped..Did he really?
attagurl - these breaks doing you good ;)
Harjee, I agree with u and thanks for the encouragement. I loved your quotes (have been passing them around to all who possess the sensitivity to grasp their meaning! :) aage bhi aate rahiye, chai-pakodon ka intezaam ho jayega!
Satyam, well-said - I think a great part of loving someone involves loving oneself too. Only if you can stand up for yourself can you ever hope to stand up for another person.
Shikha, how true. That's why they say that loving someone does not just mean looking at each other but also looking together in the same direction.
Magpie, the break is refreshing. Methinks, we all need such breaks once in a while to realise what we are really looking for.
Meeta...that was not the essence..
We see,love,like what we want to like and see and hence all emotions are inward/instrinsic to an individual...we are capable of loving just about anybody(looking in any direction) as long as our perspective is such.
Therefore we just need to adjust those glasses we wear while looking at people/things:)
arre yaar... those are not my quotes :( though i wish i had written them... as i said i quoted from my fav collection...
as for aana jaana, khaana peena... to aap likhte rahiye. hum aate rahenge :)
as i learnt back home, "langar kabhi nahin chhodna chahiye" :P
you can actually update more often ... will make you a part of a 'high performance blogger team' too :)
what say?
i agree with harjee on the high performance blogger bit...babe update more often:)
Shikha, your point is taken. And you r right, one can fall for for almost anybody!
Harjee, Shikha, will certainly try to come to blogworld more often. But how about posting yourself??! :)
Pretty!!
Somehow though I beleive, the courage to love is more foolish than brave, but hey thats me! :)
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